Title: such a loser!!!
Date: 19 September 2006
blog r blog r...i wonder how many would saw u. haz....-__- this few days i been @ home so bore...there's nthin i wan to do....don wish de sch 2 start so soon 2...i had no idea wad i want to do after my poly life man! even if i wan go Uni. i oso donnoe wad course to take..no $ too. currently my bro is studyin Uni. besides my class no one (ppl i close wif) interest to go too. U know...1 person go is very Very borin de. i feel i very de "shi bai" = loser in life. i jus miss my life in secondary leh!!! cos in poly i don feel there's a real close friends to me. Though everyday i seemed to be wif them...but still not so close yet. The only person now i can share my feeling is waileng though in sec sch we not every time together but somehow i can talk to her as i like. in poly i jus feel tt they only care abt themselves 1st loh...i feel tt i'm the one who always been giving in to them loh. All they care is themselves only. eg. everytime choosin gems, those i not gd in...they choose it...those i gd in they don dare 2 choose loh...say they not gd in (excuse loh). THEN MI LEH....did they ever thought of those gems they choose i also can't mk it but i still choose the same as them. Y...y.. "god" treat mi this way...i don understand..i really don understand. i noe u mux b thinkin..."choose urself lah don follow them lah" but...i jus can't do it!!! i'm such a loser...can't do things alone...no courage....very dependent....lonely person. After so many yrs le...my secondary friends all have change themself quite alot. i so envy tt waileng & her friends(sec sch) still so close. i also human...i also wan some1 who support mi truly from their heart & not jus say so jus for the sake loh... i feel soOOOO tire le... i feel so meaningless...i'm jus a dead person living in this world. This world is too practical le. Not a pl i wish to live in. even myself i oso don't noe wad i really wan/need...i don understand myself le...i jus wan to b a kids wif no worry.......=(
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